Headed to nowhere

The future has always been consistently uncertain. Now that another chapter of my life is about to end, another is also about to begin. But what's in store for me in the future?

For now, I'm headed to nowhere. I'm headed to a place where all the people, at some point in their lives, have been into or will be in the future. A place where we can be lost. A place where we should not dwell. A place which is meant for us to pass by, but never to stay into. 

I hope to get past "nowhere" so I could be "somewhere". Somewhere I want to be and somewhere I can be me. Somewhere I can stay and not regret. Somewhere I could be with the people I love and do the things I like. 

Random thoughts springing from the realization of the eventuality of the occasion on the 29th day of this month.

How I Find "The Fault in Our Stars"

I knew that eventually, one of them would die. I just didn't see myself crying when that moment arrived.

Out of curiosity (because everyone's making a fuss about it in FB), I read the book "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green. I have read the synopsis before I read the whole book so I pretty much had an idea of how the story will end. But the good thing about reading the whole book than just the summary is you get the whole point. The lines, dialogues, and interesting scenes that are cut out from summary add to the overall impact of the reading. 

I knew this is a story of two cancer patients who fell in love with each other but one would eventually die and the other's heart would be broken. I knew Augustus Waters would die first before Hazel Grace Lancaster. I knew this is a sad and tragic love story. But there is more to it.

I cried when Gus died. I cried for Hazel. I cried when Gus arranged his pre-funeral so that he can hear his friends' eulogies for him. I cried when Hazel woke up one morning, without her Gus anymore. And mostly, I felt sad because it was him who have gone first, when in the beginning, it should have been Hazel. It should have been him giving a eulogy for her.It should have been him carrying all the pain of losing the one you love. But then, "the world is not a wish-granting factory" for Hazel Grace, for everybody actually.

 

I find the book worth reading. You can feel the emotions of the characters and you can have a glimpse of the views of cancer patients. It makes you feel lucky to live and not have a doctor or anyone set a limit into how long you will live. 

It's sad. It could have had a happy ending. But then again and again, "the world is not a wish-granting factory."