Some Thoughts

Well, my life has been a real roller coaster ride for these past few days. I can’t get everything into perspective and I can’t seem to know what my priorities are. I guess I’m just overwhelmed with the effect of sleepless nights coupled with pressures during the exams and the rainbow of emotions I felt in all aspects of my life.

So where do I start?

Graduation pictures and glam photos now flood every social networking sites and I have to say I’m a bit jealous because I can’t really post mine yet. But more than the jealousy I feel is the overwhelming urge to say congratulations to those who made it this year. My classmates, friends and batchmates all did their best and they deserve a very big treat: their diplomas.

As for me, I still have a year left to learn more and face the challenge of being a college student. I figured there’s no need to hurry. I’m still young and am still not ready to open another chapter of life, working in the real world. I’ve been readying myself for the sadness I will feel when my classmates graduate and so far, I think I am doing fine. Well, I’ll have to see what I will feel when I see them march down that aisle towards liberation from the pressures of school, the terror teachers and the crappy deadlines. They may be ahead of me but I will surely catch up and meet them soon.

I hope spending another year in school would teach me more lessons in school and at life. I have to admit I know more things written inside the books in school than those outside of them. I know more about the technical aspect of life than reality itself. I hope another year in school will teach me more abstract lessons that will guide me while I am preparing myself for the trials of tomorrow. I know that no amount of preparation will ever get us ready for the real thing but at least I want to walk into that reality armed. One more year and I’m out of here. One more year and I will meet my dear classmates soon. One more year, I hope.

I want to thank all the people who made my life easier and harder this school year. I want to thank all those people who tested my patience and all those who hurt me for it made me see my worth as a person. I may not be a perfect person (really, no one was) but I am perfect in my own way. I’ve met many people who made me wait, hope, expect, feel angry, sad, happy and anxious and I thank them for it all contributed to who I am now. I realized that there is nothing really constant in life and we have to accept it. All the good things fade and the worst times pass. We just have to move as life moves. When one person hurts you and says “nothing more, nothing less,” you have to accept it and disregard every fact that made you expect. When a teacher gave you a grade which you believe is less than what you deserve, take it and move on. We never know, other teachers might have also given you grades more than what you should have received. Accept change and work hard to catch up with that change.

J

“Life is what you make it.”